Pissed

I am going to try not to drag this out. Afew know that I have PTSD but I am not a combat vet. Because of that I feel that I am ignored by majority of people especially when it comes to pages like this. Everyone says you need to open up but how can you if you are constantly shot down.
Mine is from MST and from going out on recovery of birds that crashed and having to pick up body parts of pilots. I am not trying to downgrade combat PTSD but imagine having to go out and pick up a piece of fusage with skin burnt onto it or bone fragment of a pilot just the other day you launched out in your bird. I have a hell of a time trusting people because your supposed to trust those that your stationed with but 6 of those your stationed with gang rape you. Your told if anything happens to follow the chain of command but when you try you are ignored and told if you do not shut up about what happened you’ll be the one punished.

Most people in the military feel that MST does not happen or want to just ignore it but they want their issues dealt with? How is this right?

I also have Chiari Malformation at the base of the skull, meaning that the bottom part of the cerebellum and the brain stem is coming out of the base of the skull cutting off flow of CSF fluid along with putting pressure on the cervical spinal column along with causing pools of CSF fluid to collect in my spinal cord behind chest causing a lot of pain and loss of feeling. There are times where my head feels like it’s about to explode from the pressure and migraines. But I am told that that has nothing to do with PTSD? What do you think it does to PTSD, especially with the med’s that they put you on for the medical condition affects your anxiety and PTSD to. There is no cure for it at all, the only way to deal with it is meds and surgery on brain and skull, but facing that isn’t supposed to affect your PTSD either. Let someone say that lets cut your head open but oh that will not cure you and what is damaged will not change.

Who cares that a lot of the vets that are diagnosed with this commit suicide. I guess that does not matter either. I am so tired of trying to fight everything. I am tired of having my life ran by dr’s and meds. I hate not being able to even go out for a long walk with my dog when I used to love going for a run miles at a time. I hear whining constantly about being afraid of crowds….shit I’d love to be able to go out to do something and just have fun.

Before you go on about the only PTSD if your military is combat, really think about what you are saying because the supposed brothers/sisters that do have PTSD and haven’t been in combat you are actually hurting even worse. Before you go off on someone with PTSD have the full story and know what is truly going on with that person. This isn’t about combat/non-combat or military/civilian.

It’s about quality of life and having people that are willing to understand, listen and if you have good advice offer it.